I'm not sure that I disagree.

Up in the Air (2009)

Alex Goran: What a weasly prick.

Natalie Keener: Yeah, but what does that make me? Someone who falls for a prick.

Alex Goran: We all fall for the prick. Pricks are spontaneous, they're unpredictable and they're fun. And then we're surprised when they turn out to be pricks.

accountant of the heart

As soon as you begin to ask the question: Who loves me?
are completely screwed,
because the next question is: How Much?

and then it is hundreds of hours later,
and you are still hunched over
your flowcharts and abacus,

trying to decide if you have gotten enough.
This is the loneliest job in the world:
to be an accountant of the heart.

It is late at night. You are by yourself,
and all around you, you can hear
the sounds of people moving

in and out of love,
pushing the turnstiles, putting
their coins in the slots,

paying the price which is asked,
which constantly changes.
No one knows why.

"The Loneliest Job in the World"
by Tony Hoagland

secret road maps of their personal histories

People have scars in all sorts of unexpected places, like secret road maps of their personal histories, diagrams of all their old wounds. Most of our old wounds heal, leaving nothing behind but a scar, but some of them don't. Some wounds we carry with us everywhere and though the cuts long gone, the pain still lingers.

What's worse? New wounds which are so horribly painful or old wounds that should've healed years ago and never did? Maybe our old wounds teach us something, they remind us where we've been and what we've overcome, they teach us lessons about what to avoid in the future. That's what we like to think, but that's not the way it is, is it? Somethings you just have to learn over and over and over again.
~Grey's Anatomy

pyromaniac in a petrified forest

Considering I am the embodiment of anger and frustration today, I cannot even bring myself to post something thoughtful. Where I lack the words to express my complete and utter dissatisfaction with multiple avenues of my life at the moment - many others have captured them in fanciful little sayings we all like to repeat (and plagiarize) called quotes. Enjoy.

“I am as frustrated with society as a pyromaniac in a petrified forest.”
A. Whitney Brown

You know that when I hate you, it is because
I love you to a point of passion that unhinges my soul.
Julie de Lespinasse


Oh, you hate your job? Why didn't you say so?
There's a support group for that.
It's called EVERYBODY -- they meet at the bar.
Drew Carey


Anger always comes from frustrated expectations.
Elliott Larson


When love is suppressed hate takes its place.
Havelock Ellis


Hatred is the madness of the heart.
Lord Byron


When one's own problems are unsolvable and all best efforts frustrated,
it is lifesaving to listen to other people's problems.
Suzanne Massie


I don't want to be in your future.
It's frustrating enough being in your present.
Roger Erickson


Every writer is a frustrated actor who recites his
lines in the hidden auditorium of his skull.
Rod Sterling


Frustrated love has been the incentive for many great works.
John N. Mitchell

Funny to see my last post followed by this one ...

The Objective of Being Happy

We all live with the objective of being happy;
our lives are all different and yet the same.
Anne Frank

How true. My life is not so drastically different than it was a few weeks ago ... oh, but it is! Slowly but surely - things have changed; and, I have changed with them. I'm starting to like this new me, new life - and as Meredith & Molly both pointed out -- possibly new luck? Mostly because of a little thing that, with it, brought some happiness: peace of mind.

New Year Funny ...

Man Killed in Gym Fight Over Exercise Equipment

No, I'm not joking.

An altercation over an exercise machine turned deadly an East Flatbush gym Saturday.

Douglas Smith was jumped by two thugs wielding a knife and hammer after an argument over who claimed "first dibs" on a Nautilus machine. The 50-year-old social worker quarreled with another gym member, who in turn called the alleged killers.

The New York Daily News reports,

Witnesses said Smith was exercising on the elliptical machine when the duo ambushed him from behind, stabbing him three times in the back and walloping him in the head with a hammer.

One of the alleged killers, Shawn Hing, was arrested Sunday night and charged with second-degree murder. The other alleged killer and the gym member are still at large.

And you thought exercising was a safe anger outlet?

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2009/12/15/douglas-smith-social-work_n_392505.html