It is horrible to fear the place you once loved.

It is horrible to fear the place you once loved. To see a streetcorner you knew so well and be afraid of it's shadow. To see familiar steps and be unable to climb them. I never understood how people lived in fear. Women afraid to walk home alone. People afraid of white powder in their mailbox. Darkness and night. People afraid of people. I always believed that fear belonged to other people. Weaker people. It never touched me. And then it did. And when it touches you, you know ... it's been there all along ... waiting beneath the surfaces of everything you loved. And your skin crawls, and your heart sickens, and you look at the person you once were walking down that street .. and you wonder will you ever be her again?